Living in the Unknown

Life use to feel somewhat predictable and comfortable. I had a home in Florida and a full time job that provided me with some certainty. I knew for a long time I was ready for a change however my spirit guided me to have patience and to wait for the right timing. In March everything started to move very quickly and now I am in Northern California living with my daughter and her family. My life now is filled with uncertainty and I am definitely living in the unknown.
My experience is quite wonderful even though at times frightening and even terrifying. I feel alive and growing in my awareness and in my consciousness. I am waking up to a new way of being and I am discovering its magic day by day.
Following my spirit, I found myself at Spirit Rock Meditation Center to listen to a spiritual teacher called Adyashanti. It was a beautiful day and I was ready and open to be inspired. Instead I found myself distracted and uncomfortable, so much so that I had to leave the meditation hall and take a walk outside. My energy felt blocked and I felt shut down. I stayed with the feeling and reentered the hall. As I sat listening but not being very present, I felt a powerful shift of energy. Love filled my being and I began to feel great compassion and gratitude. The day ended and when I got home I listened to some of Adyashanti’s darma talks. The next day I stayed in bed for most of the day and felt a deep sense of comfort and peace.

As the days go by, I am more accepting of the way things are. I am releasing attachments to things being the way I would like them to be and observing my feelings and thoughts. There is a space now for kindness and compassion for my humaness and my imperfections. Being present for the moment, reveals truth.

I am now preparing to move into my own home and I am excited about creating a sacred santuary, a place that will truly reflect this next phase of my life. I have chosen to live in community  and it will be a new experience for me. This decision was not an easy one as I am now taking another step into the unknown. I am more alive, more awake and more aware as my journey  unfolds with a deep profound sense of mystery and trust in the Divine.