Interesting how life leads us to what we need to grow and become who we truly are. I am experiencing a profound sense of freedom. I now have very little responsibilities, the heavy trappings of life are gone. No house, other than my home that I rent, no job, no children to take care of. All there is is me for the first time in my life. It is an extraordinary experience. Just me..the need to be needed is no longer. I love my children and I see that they are grown women capable of taking care of themselves. My grandchildren have 2 parents whose job it is to raise them to take care of themselves. It is not my job..so I ask myself , what is my job at this point in my life? And I hear a small voice from within telling me to live life fully, to love, to be joyful and to appreciate the gift of life.
It is somewhat strange for me to wake up everyday and to allow myself to truly follow my energy and allow the day to unfold. I am learning to live a quieter, simpler life that is rich in its moments. And I am learning to follow spirit and to go where it leads me.
Last weekend, I attended a 2 two day workshop with the owners of Cafe Gratitude. They have several health food restaurants in Northern and Southern California. Their restaurants are truly a school of transformation where they practice sacred commerce. The workshop was on Inspired Leaders and Community Building. I was totally blown away by their commitment to their employees lives and the love that was expressed.
The workshop had a powerful effect on me. It showed me where I was not being the space of love and how the power of apology can restore relationship. I am now in the process of having some courageous conversations with people that I have judged and will apologize to them. It’s not that I was wrong and they were right, it’s more for me to keep my heart open and be the space for love.
I am finding my calling and my mission. Spirit is guiding me to the people and places that I am spiritually connected to. My mind has totally surrendered to my heart and I am at peace in how my life is unfolding. Trust and faith are my constant companions on this journey and even though I don’t know where it is taking me I feel total gratitude for this amazing adventure of my life.