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Awakening of Love

acce0065 — Sun, 22 Apr 2012 06:27:01 +0000

To feel so deeply, to care so deeply, to love so deeply without conditions. Free in spirit, to be love. My eyes fill with tears..the feelings are powerful and tender. So sweet the love for all of life. For the moments of beauty for the moments of sorrow, for all of the moments of life. Every moment a sacred gift of experience.

I now know that Life is eternal and that Love is everlasting. When our hearts are open, love flows. It is through a direct experience that we know love.

My father loved his wife, my mother very much. When he made his transition I was able to feel his spirit and I knew he was still connected to me, guiding me and even protecting me. He communicated to me through Sally Baldwin, a medium who channels souls that have passed over. My father told me that we have no idea or concept of the Love that is possible. He felt an overpowering love when he passed over to the nonphysical form and he wanted me to know that we can love so much more than we think is possible in the physical form. What we think of as love in many cases is the tip of the iceberg. I now know what he meant.

I just returned from 3 weeks in Maui where I did a retreat with Terces and Matthew Englehardt, the founders of Cafe Gratitude and during that retreat I had a direct experience of Divine Love. It is the love that opened my heart to greater caring, tenderness and compassion and a feeling of the sacredness for all of life.

My experience on a daily basis has changed. Fear has been replaced by love which feels like a deep sense of safety. Divine love is unconditional. We are love and we are loved. We don’t have to do anything for The Divine to love us. We are loved just as we are.

When we know we are love we stop looking for love outside of us and we stop thinking that we have to do or be something to get it and we have to figure out how to keep it. Our hearts are full and Love flows like a river out into the universe.

My perceptions have changed and I am beginning to see things in a new light. I realize that I am able to receive love and feel love because I am love and I am loved.

Six months ago I met a man whose culture is different and there is a significant age difference yet our spirit and our souls connect. Love has found me and I am so grateful.

I love my life and I am so grateful for Terces and Matthew for their inspired teachings and for their devotion to sharing this work with the world.

As the Beetles sang and Mother Theresa knew and said, What the World needs now is Love, Sweet Love………….

This story is to be continued…………

If you would like to share your love story, please email me at sheila@accessgreatness.com

Healing Journey

acce0065 — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 16:26:47 +0000

Trusting the Universe to bring us what we need to become more conscious and aware is something I have heard to be true however I did not really have a direct experience of this truth until……………..
It was a Monday night and I was at my daughter Karen’s house when I noticed a little bump on my check that looked like an insect bite. By Tuesday morning it had spread and looked like a nasty rash. The drug store recommended I use bendadryl for the swelling and itch. By Wednesday morning my face was unrecognizable. Swollen and red I went to the ER where I was misdiagnosed and their suggested treatment made things worse. My second visit to the ER I was told it was poison oak. Now the swelling and rash was pretty much everywhere on my body and was extremely painful.
For 2 full weeks I was literally in bed with pain. I never even in childbirth experienced consistent pain.
My only recourse was to totally surrender to my body and to listen deeply to the profound wisdom. My body was requiring silence and quiet. My daughter Gabby suggested I listen to a powerful mantra for healing called ramadasa. This gave me peace and comfort. The medicine I was taking made me want to eat often. I listened to what my body wanted and ate what my body was needing to nourish myself.
As I lay quietly, I began to see myself as I have been clearly in a way that revealed a deep truth of who I was being. Some of it was not pretty to see. I began to be aware that this image of myself was not who I am. My awareness revealed ways I had been using my energy that was not useful.
And most importantly, I began to see a false self emerging before me. It was like I was dying and got to see my life flashing before me. At the same time something was emerging, I was falling in love with me. I was taking care of me with a kind loving heart. I spent hours alone day after day with me and I began to see myself differently. I began to feel as if I was shedding my skin and with that lifetimes of untruths. My body began to let go of years of neglect and avoidance. I was now loving myself, loving and appreciating my body and feeling reborn from the inside. Every cell was being filled with the light and love of the universe.
The pain has passed, the swelling gone and I now see my beauty. I am filled with gratitude for this healing journey that the universe provided to wake me up to the truth………..I feel blessed and in deep profound awe of how the universe works for our highest good even when the gift comes in a package we didn’t order. The universe is guiding us and is always loving us through the challenges we face as human beings.
My journey continues and I embrace all of life, the pain the sorrow and the love and bliss. I am stronger now in body, mind and spirit. I have learned a powerful lesson and I now know that my body is my temple and I have learned to listen deeply to the wisdom of my body . I now continue my journey in greater awareness and consciousness to truth, to love and to the sacredness of all of life as a miraculous healing journey.

If you would like to speak with me personally, please email me at sheila@accessgreatness.com

Let Go Let God

acce0065 — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 07:43:26 +0000

It’s 12 midnight and I am tired however I heard a small voice inside my head that said, Let Go Let God, Write your blog. Honestly, I knew exactly what to do. You see I have been listening to that small voice within for quite some time now. I use to argue with it, ignore it or just not do what it is asking me to do. However, I learned that this voice has power and holds the key to one of the secrets of the universe. By not listening once a few years ago when I was living in Florida, I took a route to get to the beach that the voice told me not to. Five minutes from my home, a car came speedy down the wrong side of the road directly pointed at my car. I turned the wheel quickly and we avoided a terrible crash. From that day on, I choose to listen to that voice.
This voice inside is our voice of intuition, our higher self or God. It guides me with wisdom from a deep place within my soul. My mind cannot take me to the places that my inner voice shows me. Many times I hear a small voice say to me, relax and be patient. Allow the desires of your heart to come to you with ease, joy and grace. My doing mind so conditioned to be in control, to effort, to make things happen is now surrendering to a new way of being. There is a peace that has entered my heart and a reverance for life. all of life.

In many of the teachings in how to manifest , they say, tell the universe what you want and allow the universe to handle how it will come. I now know that the universe will respond to our asking and bring us what we truly desire. However, it may not match our picture of what we asked for. It may come in a different package and if we are not careful we will miss the gift the universe created for us.

By being open and flexible in following the energy, I have received a beautiful gift. A man has come into my life that has opened my heart and shows me the beauty of loving in a new way free of the wounds of the past. He has opened his heart and my heart is healing. I am so grateful for this beautiful gift. Living in the present moment without expectations of the future is freeing and alive. Spirit then is the creator and there is much joy in following the energy and being an non attached observer of the experience,

Another man has come into my life with a deep heartfelt friendship. We support eachother and can share our truth. He has an ability to listen and receive me in a way that is also healing my heart and showing me a true and meaningful aspect of love.

The universe is teaching me that I can trust men, that I don’t have to be afraid of being hurt and that I have done the work to now experience different relationships with men. Recently a man moved into my household as a member of our community. He is so generous of heart and spirit and is teaching me to receive his generosity with ease and love. He too is healing my heart.

I now know that by Letting Go and Letting God, my life has changed. I could not and did not make these things happen by being in control, efforting, and being in charge. By letting go and letting God, I have received far greater gifts than I could even imagine.

I am deeply grateful ……………..and I shall continue to allow that small inner voice to guide me to my highest good.

If you would like to speak with me personally, email me at sheila@accessgreatness.com

Live Life With Joy

acce0065 — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 16:04:57 +0000

We are living in a time of dynamic change. There is an opening now on our planet to new levels of consciousness and many people are feeling new energies that can sometimes make them feel confused and overwhelmed. … These new energies are powerful forces that are pushing us forward into new ways of being and into new forms of living. The old forms were the building blocks of what was………who we have been. Many of these forms have been restrictive and limiting to our true nature. These conditioned forms have created pain and suffering for many. Relationships, work, money, even our health has been out of a scarity model of not having enough. This way of living has not brought happiness and joy to people. We are now at the beginning of letting go of the old and opening to the new way of being. Of course, not everyone on the planet is aware of what is happening energetically and may feel the changes are scarey and want to hold on to what is familar….even when it doesn’t feel good.

The shift from the old paradigm to the new paradigm is a spiritual journey. It requires living in faith and trust in something greater than ourselves. My journey has included meditation practice and journaling as well as yoga and spending time in nature. Visioning and working with the angels and higher realms have also been a way of tuning into my dreams and manifesting my intentions.

My work now involves counseling and guiding people who are making this shift and want to live a truly great life of love, joy and abundance.

If you would like to speak with me personally, please email me at sheila@accessgreatness.com for a free consultation.

Freedom

acce0065 — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 05:27:24 +0000

Interesting how life leads us to what we need to grow and become who we truly are. I am experiencing a profound sense of freedom. I now have very little responsibilities, the heavy trappings of life are gone. No house, other than my home that I rent, no job, no children to take care of. All there is is me for the first time in my life. It is an extraordinary experience. Just me..the need to be needed is no longer. I love my children and I see that they are grown women capable of taking care of themselves. My grandchildren have 2 parents whose job it is to raise them to take care of themselves. It is not my job..so I ask myself , what is my job at this point in my life? And I hear a small voice from within telling me to live life fully, to love, to be joyful and to appreciate the gift of life.

It is somewhat strange for me to wake up everyday and to allow myself to truly follow my energy and allow the day to unfold. I am learning to live a quieter, simpler life that is rich in its moments. And I am learning to follow spirit and to go where it leads me.

Last weekend, I attended a 2 two day workshop with the owners of Cafe Gratitude. They have several health food restaurants in Northern and Southern California. Their restaurants are truly a school of transformation where they practice sacred commerce. The workshop was on Inspired Leaders and Community Building. I was totally blown away by their commitment to their employees lives and the love that was expressed.

The workshop had a powerful effect on me. It showed me where I was not being the space of love and how the power of apology can restore relationship. I am now in the process of having some courageous conversations with people that I have judged and will apologize to them. It’s not that I was wrong and they were right, it’s more for me to keep my heart open and be the space for love.

I am finding my calling and my mission. Spirit is guiding me to the people and places that I am spiritually connected to. My mind has totally surrendered to my heart and I am at peace in how my life is unfolding. Trust and faith are my constant companions on this journey and even though I don’t know where it is taking me I feel total gratitude for this amazing adventure of my life.

Awakening

acce0065 — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 01:41:08 +0000

Life is full of surprises. We never know what is around the corner and what we are about to face. About a week ago I came down with a cold and cough..after several days of feeling worse, I dragged myself to an urgent care center. They wanted to be sure my lungs were ok, so they took an xray. The doctor came in and informed me, pneumonia. What me? I don’t get sick like that but nevertheless there it was in black and white. Next came a big shot of antibiotics in my rearend and medication to heal the infection.
I’ve been in a resting state for the last few days and everyday feeling much better.
Once I surrendered to what is, dropped my resistance to being fully present with this experience, a surprising thing happened. I started to relax deeply and to feel peace and joy in this new experience. I was and am in total allowance of what is and it is joyous and peaceful……..I thought to myself, Everything is Energy and asked myself, I created this for what reason?
Then the awakening started to happen. While in bed, I’ve been listening to meditations preparing me receive the higher energies of 11.11.11. I listened to Maureen Moss on Self Love. It is on her website and I strongly recommend you listen to it if you too are preparing to receive the higher energies.
I also listened to Panache Dasai on the World Puja Network on the topic, What triggers Us. That message gave me a new insight into some of the recent triggers I had been experiencing. My friend Rich Atkinson, a very gifted Access Consciousness facilitator worked with me on some old conditioning that has been distracting me living my life from unlimited possibilities and creating the life that I truly desire.
And last night I listened to Gary Douglas, the founder Access Consciousness and Simone discuss, The Joy of Business which was inspiring and I remembered what truly brings me joy……….and what I love to do.
Then, the topper for my awakening was a call I listened to with Rikka Zimmermann, a truly inspired access facilitator, speaking on Intimacy With You. It was amazing as she cleared all the heavy conditioning we received about what we do to show we care to others and in that destroy ourselves, our bodies and our lives.
It was then that I realized, getting sick was a gift from the universe. It stopped me from continuing life as usual, and gave me a great gift of going deeper into my soul’s work and clearing out the lies and allowing the truth to shine through bringing me to a new state of awareness. I forgot that as an infinite being, I can choose in 10 second increments what I most desire. I now know that my life has changed and I am more conscious of choosing my life. The Access Consciouness work is truly a gift and I am excited to see Gary Douglas and Dr. Dain Heer this weekend. I studied with them several years ago and it changed my life then and it is changing it now.
Two Access tools you can use everday are; How does it get any better than this? Say it when something good happens or when something bad happens and watch what the universe brings to you when you ask that question.
Second tool is, everyday 10 times in the morning and 10 times at night say, All of life comes to me with ease, joy and glory and notice what begins to happen in your life.
If you’d like to contact me you can email me at sheila@accessgreatness.com.
In loving kindness, Sheila
How does it get any better than this?

Everything is Energy

acce0065 — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 05:24:36 +0000

How often do we focus our attention on the present moment? Most of the time we are rushing around to get things done so we can cross off our todo list, go to sleep and start all over again. Do we take the time to notice what is right in front of us, the surroundings, the people we are interacting with? Most of the time for many of us we are moving so quickly we notice very little that is in our path.
Since moving to California my life has changed. I am living a more mindful life and becoming more aware of the energy that is present in the moment.
Each day feels like a grand adventure even the ordinary things I do. I am curious to who I will meet and what events will occur. Simple things like going to the grocery store with my granddaughter is a truly divine experience. She is delighted by all the different types of food and carefully makes her choices of what she will put in her basket and bring home. Her energy is alive and moves here and there with no designed plan. I watch her as she follows the energy. She is having a wonderful joyful experience. Some people stop for a moment and share her joy with a smile.
I went to the park a few weeks ago by myself in the early part of the evening. Actually I was upset about someting that had happened earlier in the day and thought a walk would do me good.
As I walked I noticed a young man and he smiled at me. Spontaneously, I smiled back and we started to walk the path together. His energy was sweet and calming to me and before long we were laughing and sharing stories about our lives.
When it got dark, we walked to the parking lot and he asked for my number and wanted to meet again. The old me would have said no and yet I was able to stay with the energy and respond positively.
How many times have I shut down the flow of energy or my clear inner feelings because of fear of the unknown. Fear of what would happen if I was living in an expanded state of consciousness and allowing my guidance and my inner knowing direct my path.
I have seen this young man several times since the day in the park and he has given me a beautiful gift of seeing myself in a new way, more open, less fearful and more accepting to the gifts of the universe.
Some of the gifts that arrive at our doorsteps, don’t always look like what we ordered. Yet they are the gifts our soul is guiding as through to grow and expand into the greatness of who we truly are. There are no accidents, everything that comes into our lives, is a divine gift to help us become more aware and more awake to the gift of life………Celebrate our aliveness and be mindful of each day and the energy that is flowing to you and from you connecting you to all that is.

Living in the Unknown

acce0065 — Sun, 16 Oct 2011 19:20:36 +0000

Life use to feel somewhat predictable and comfortable. I had a home in Florida and a full time job that provided me with some certainty. I knew for a long time I was ready for a change however my spirit guided me to have patience and to wait for the right timing. In March everything started to move very quickly and now I am in Northern California living with my daughter and her family. My life now is filled with uncertainty and I am definitely living in the unknown.
My experience is quite wonderful even though at times frightening and even terrifying. I feel alive and growing in my awareness and in my consciousness. I am waking up to a new way of being and I am discovering its magic day by day.
Following my spirit, I found myself at Spirit Rock Meditation Center to listen to a spiritual teacher called Adyashanti. It was a beautiful day and I was ready and open to be inspired. Instead I found myself distracted and uncomfortable, so much so that I had to leave the meditation hall and take a walk outside. My energy felt blocked and I felt shut down. I stayed with the feeling and reentered the hall. As I sat listening but not being very present, I felt a powerful shift of energy. Love filled my being and I began to feel great compassion and gratitude. The day ended and when I got home I listened to some of Adyashanti’s darma talks. The next day I stayed in bed for most of the day and felt a deep sense of comfort and peace.

As the days go by, I am more accepting of the way things are. I am releasing attachments to things being the way I would like them to be and observing my feelings and thoughts. There is a space now for kindness and compassion for my humaness and my imperfections. Being present for the moment, reveals truth.

I am now preparing to move into my own home and I am excited about creating a sacred santuary, a place that will truly reflect this next phase of my life. I have chosen to live in community and it will be a new experience for me. This decision was not an easy one as I am now taking another step into the unknown. I am more alive, more awake and more aware as my journey unfolds with a deep profound sense of mystery and trust in the Divine.

Following Spirit

acce0065 — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 04:54:39 +0000

I have now been in Marin County about one month. The beauty of this area is feeding my soul. The trees and the hills embrace and surround the towns and everywhere I look I see the earth and its splendor. Spending time in nature is my discovery to my true essense.

My body grows stronger as I hike into the forest and experience the sounds of all the nature spirits. On one of my hikes, I heard a hissing sound and looked in the direction of the sound, as I looked down to my surprise I saw a large rattlesnake. Without hesitation, I ran back to my car looking back to see if it was following me. When I got my breath and knew that I escaped a nasty situation, I asked myself, why did I create this in my reality; and as I sat quietly and listened for an answer, I heard an inner voice say, “You are taking a path less traveled and it can be dangerous. You must stay very aware and listen to spirit. Keep your intentions clear and keep your attention to what is happening in the present moment.

The next few weeks led me into several situations that had a significant effect in opening my heart. The first was a four hour symposium called, Awakening The Dreamer, Changing The Dream. It was through the Pachamama Alliance in San Francisco. My heart was filled with sorrow and guilt when I viewed a video that depicted our planet and what was happening and how we are destroying the earth.

As we continued, we watched what is emerging on our planet with the environment, social justice and spiritual consciousness. And I began to feel empowered and hopeful that I can and do make a difference by the choices I make everyday. I bring my bags everywhere and I bring my bottle for water and my cup for coffee. No more paper cups and plastic lids. It may seem like a small thing to do however it feels like I am contributing to the environment in a positive way.

In December, they will be doing a 2 day training program and I plan to attend…..The Pachamama Alliance is a great organization and I would like to be a part it.

The next weekend, spirit led me to another powerful opening of my heart. I participated in healing ceremonies for trees. As I sat underneath a beautiful redwood tree, I received another message from spirit telling me to sit in stillness and to find my tree. The facilitator of the ceremonies, mentioned that Julia Butterfly Hill, a spiritual activist, does a program called “What’s Your Tree” and it assists people in discovering their next mission in Life. I had noticed that Julia was going to be at Spirit Rock Meditation Center doing a full day on Spiritual Activism. I did not hesitate and signed up.

It was a beautiful Saturday morning as I drove to the Meditation Center. I got there early and I took a hike to the top of one of their hills and saw a grand view of the trees and the valley. As I walked in I saw Julia right away and we spoke and made a connection. The day involved rigorous yoga and my body responded positively. We sat in stillness and listened to the wise words coming from a woman who took a courageous stand and lived in a tree for 2 years and 8 days until there was a decision made that the trees would not be cut down. Julia is my Joan Of Arc…………I am so proud and blessed to have been able to spend the day with her.

Now I take my courageous stand into the unknown, one step at a time knowing I am supported and loved by Mother Earth and my spiritual sisters and brothers. I give thanks for all my blessings.

Inner Journey

acce0065 — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 01:59:14 +0000

I made it all the way to California. My life has changed and I am not the person I was. Driving across country by myself gave me time to reflect and gave me a powerful sense of freedom. I am slowly getting to know who I am and I am less afraid of life. There is a sense that I really don’t desire anything. I am not trying to be anybody and I am not trying to fix anything or save the world. My awareness has shifted and I am at peace with how things are. I don’t even think I have any opinions anymore, is it that I don’t care? I don’t think so……………I believe my focus has become inward in a way that is unfamiliar to me. I spend my time spacing out alot. Daydreaming about things that are not material or practical…………things that are of the spiritual realm. Imagining myself living in peace and harmony with my soul family.

My spirit is guiding me. Nature feeds my soul. Walking with my grandchild at the park or feeding the ducks has become a joyous precious experience, fully experiencing the moment. All my life it seems I was efforting to get somewhere ………….trying to control my life,to feel safe. I now find that each day doing the simpliest things is so fulfilling.

Living in the moment has been a concept, yet until now I really have not experienced it. Surrendering and allowing the day to unfold without trying to control anything or make anything happen. Being available for the unfoldment…………..

I am feeling free of emotional bondage, free of my conditioning and free of my limiting beliefs. The sense that anything is possible is beginning to feel true and that I am able to truly live an extraordinary life. ………….. a simple life.

Letting go of fear and control opens me to a new way of living, feeling happy and at peace to who I am and allowing the adventure to unfold…………the unknown is not fearful to me anymore. It is filled with infinite possibilities.